Dear Juliet I think that's it. It's not a perfect cure or solution, of course (that is the province of film and fantasy), but I think taking a few days at Point Lobos, walking up the path to the Carmelite monastery there and spending some time in the grounds and chapel should be of help. I think the nuns do tours . They aren't Vulcan high priestesses, of course, but sometimes fantasy has a basis in reality. Nor is there a timetable for this. Go when and if you feel ready, but I think I'd recommend climbing the steps to your Mount Seleya . I think that if there is Somebody Up There, He does like you . But if there is, the one thing He can't do is override your free will . However, He can make some pretty firm recommendations and if you don't follow them, well, you get stomped. Seen that happen a few times ... So, might be an idea? In the meantime, I've got the ticket for the Globe, with a stop-off at the Golden Hinde , which is a bit like an early Enterprise...